sos

alone and surrounded with darkness
dead silence as i drift onward on this wooden raft
so fragile from the long journey
cracks and chips from hardships it's endured
sensing a unknown presence around me
waiting for me to fall, to fail, to give up
i wish i could hear their whispers
just tiny voices that'd tell me what to say
and what to do
too far away to grasp, to comprehend
wishing i could feel ropes pulling me in the right direction
a puppet master to show me what to do
someone directing me, instead of being stuck
but there's no strings attached.
sitting here with no movement, no reassurance, no help
with this pit in my stomach
a pit of unsureness, hopelessness, and panic
want to fill it up, to be able to sleep, to be able to make everything work
but i think i'm lost
and the voices are too far away to hear
not loud enough to make out
when you really need someone
a sos signal can't be sent out
feels like i'm lost at sea
just rocking back and forth with the waves but not moving
picturing the same wave crash onto shore a million times
as the cracks get bigger
holding myself up in the deep waters
sink or swim