The truth and nothing but the truth

is it best to know everything or to leave things unknown? cause some things you might not want to know. or admit to yourself. that's the problem that i always have. i hide the truth from myself. i think that it's easier to not admit some things to yourself. it makes life simplier in some ways? but at the same time it's not good at all. if you don't allow the truth to come out and be known then before you know it, it could be too late.

feels like i'm hitting a wall a hundred times over
no movement... no going foward
is there no advancement to be made? no way around these barriers?
not allowing myself to get choked up, to shed any tears, to let anything show
just keep following the voices, down the unknown path
unsure where it leads
staying hopeful, as time goes on
that silver lining will come soon

so holy fuck it's been a while. it's probably not a good thing that i haven't been writing. it's kinda defeating the purpose to not use this blog lol. but yeahh everything's been sorta hectic with work and life and everything. i've been kinda stressed out, not so much about work but about everything else. and i just don't know what to do about some things. i'm going to finish this later cause i can't actually write right now haha my mind's going like 100000 miles a minute and it's fucking me up atm sooo laterrrrrrrrrrrr