Tick Tock Tick Tock

time.. it can be a good thing or a bad thing. there are two bad things associated with time. waiting, and not having enough of it. when there is a countdown, or a deadline in life is there any point in doing anything or should you just ignore everything and not do anything? cause eventually, well as soon as time is up, it's hard to say if it would of been worth it. right now, all i hear is a clock ticking down.. time getting less and less and it's scary. i actually think something is working against me. i can't seem to get anything right. nothing seems to go how i want it to. it's so frustrating. i try as hard as i can without actually doing anything drastic to get what i want but it seems like it never works, everrr. i wish things could actually go how i want them to. you think i'd deserve for them to eventually right? but i think the worst thing ever is wondering about it later. like if i did this then what might of happened.. it's so confusing and scary because you never know. you don't know what is the right thing to do. it's hard. and i don't know what to do at all.