Hello World

• Yeah so hey. Umm i'm just pretty much going to use this to get thoughts and stuff out. Stuff that i really don't talk to other people about.. well i do sometimes but at the same time it's just nice to be able to say everything at once. My name's Molly on here. I'm not going to use my real name because of stalkers and all that. I've gotten the "it's not safe on the internet" speech enough times to have common sense about these kinds of things. But yeah. I'm in college and finished my first year. Woot. Big deal, I know. I'm going to job hunt as soon as my parents can find the time to take me. Horrible huh? "You need to find a job". Well, my resume and everything is done. Now all i need is to get there. And who needs to take me? Well how about you? The people who say they don't have time to take me. Ugh.
  
  I wish i was back at college. It's fun there. My friends are there. Everything i love is there. It's horrible that i'm not really enjoying being at home that much. The only nice things are that i can get showers as long as i want and i don't have to rush around for classes. Oh, and i get to see my dog. That's always a bonus. But really, i miss hanging out with friends and going to parties and chillin with the guys and meeting new people. I don't really have many friends at home. I stopped talking to most of them last summer. Looking back at my old friends, i find a lot of them fake. I never noticed it before but now i do. Just the way they said things and the way they treated other people, it bothers me now. So i don't talk to them anymore. Sucks though cause now i'm kinda lacking in the friends at home department. I still talk to some people who live here, but they're all guys. It's like school this year "You need to make more friends that are girls haha" Yeahh maybe i do lol. But heyy it's not like i planned it that way. I just like hanging out with guys. They're easy to get along with. There's less drama and omg what a bitch and eww i look gross today and blah blah blah.
  
  So yeah, i'm pretty much lacking friends at home and i'm lacking a job. So what have i been doing? Eating probably more than i should.. stupid at home food that i missed so much and now feel so gross after eating. I'm realizing this though so hopefully i will cut down on eating all this chocolate and crackers and other carbs and shit. And i've been exercising. I'm doing it when i'm bored. Why? I'm not sure. I've always been insecure about my body and stuff though. I mean, i used to be the chubby little quiet kid in school. Even now when people are like oh you're skinny. I'm like yeah right. Not at all. I still think i look fat when i look in the mirror. It's definitely not a good thing. But my hip waist ratio and all that is messed so that's probably why.
  
  Running/walking takes off stress anyways. It's a good way to let my mind wander and think about random stuff. And listen to music aka my love. I'm only a little bit obsessed with music and all that. I loveeee to sing. Even though my family tells me i suck i don't care. I still love it. I love rising and lowering my voice to different notes and pitches. I used to want to be a singer when i was a little kid, oh back when life was that simple. Before you realize there's college and life where you still have to work to get a career after grade 12. What do i want to do for a career? Hopefully in 3 years my career will magically be handed to me.. yeah right. Well, i WANT to work for a clothing industry. I'm studying retail and marketing. I love clothes and fashion and i can't really sew or draw that well so i decided why not try the business side of the fashion industry? I'm good at choosing out clothes for other people and matching colors and seeing something and knowing what to do to fix it to make it look better and all that but i know in the fashion industry that's not enough. So business it is. I would love to help promote a clothing line and work with the designers and go to shows and travel and market the clothes to potential companies and all that stuff. I think it's something that i would be really good at.
  
  So, school, life, appearence, job, careers, what's left? oh yeah, boys. UGH. So maybe i'm cursed when it comes to boys. Is that possible? haha it seems like the only explaination. Everytime i like someone something always happens. Something messes up. Maybe it's me. I don't know. But yeah. It's summer now though so i'm not worrying about it. When i go back to school at the end of the summer though, that should be interesting. What do you do if you like someone who you know likes you because you found out they liked you before you became friends with them and now you're really good friends with them and you think they still like you but they're now seeing someone else but still acts like they like you and at the same time still acts like a friend? I know, WTF. haha i think i'm screwed. But you never know, summer changes people. I mean there's like 4 months. A lot can happen in four months. Right?
  
  Well i think that's all for now. I've said all i have to say for today. I will keep updating every few days when something random happens. I'll try to keep it interesting. Byeee